Indulgence

When I set my resolution for the new year, I told myself that I want to live it up in 2009.

Little did I know that my interpretation for 'living it up' is quite far-fetched from what people would normally define the phrase.

In my very own terms, I wanted to make full meaning of living - to experience the most that I could. Well, this of course includes the pursuit of pleasure, but not necessarily in the most expensive way.

To date, I have been living by my own promise to experience more; to seek pleasure by letting myself enjoy the things that I like... at any expense, I have done it. I killed my cravings by satisfying them all - going on a gratifying shopping trip overseas, hanging out late with my girls with dance and/or music. I have been in a way, very pampering to myself.

If anything, the word to sum up my year so far:

in⋅dulge (from www.dictionary.com)
1. to yield to an inclination or desire; allow oneself to follow one's will
2. to yield to, satisfy, or gratify (desires, feelings, etc.)
3. to yield to the wishes or whims of

Cheers to the other half of the year, there are more to come!

One year mark

Passed the one-year mark.

It was a quiet entry into my second year... what appears like an ordinary phase to most, is a feat to me for having made this far.

The intial times spent in circles and doubts only ended up in non-commitment and each of those days was like a passing mark in time but not in the truest sense of achievement.

But this one is different. I believed and fought every moment to have come so far. It was a satisfying fight - one that you ended with a smile of triumph and pure contentment. Every sweat and pain was just worth it.

Though this is no doubt a gratifying experience that will follow me for life, I knew just like how there is always a peak and fall to everything else in life, this won't go on for very long.

Either of us will forsake the race for something else; something better or worse.

Life is beautiful. But beautiful things come to an end often at its peak.

What is truly important is to have seen and felt the beauty of life, not necessarily to possess it.