Thinking again

The busy days finally came to an end. It was strange how I had been looking forward to the end of this hectic days and now I am missing those days again. The constant anticipation to the results and the end was the main driving force and motivation to move ahead. Now that it was over, there was a sense of satisfaction and relief as well as sense of loss - a sense of loss from the separation and discontinuation of the process of anticipation, and some bits of nostalgia from the surreality of it all.

The fact that I have to face certain issues that were already in my mind after this was also one of the reasons I didn't really want this to end so soon. The sentiments and passion for what I have been doing are no doubt a big part of my motivation to have come this far. The satisfaction and experiences from the last few days have also unexpectedly strengthened these sentiments. There might be some influence from the conversations I had over the past few days that made me feel that I am still in the right place.

I am hesitant, once again, if I am ready for a change now.