December
Painful.
Yes, it could not better fit that feeling that I am having now, inside.
The silence could not be much more deafening than this. It kept ringing in my head every minute, every second... reminding me. Mourning. I am all by myself, left all alone in the empty space and emptiness.
My eyes swelled every time I spoke of the present and the future. I felt this sense of loss, like a part of me just died.
No other disappointment and anger at this moment could be more overwhelming than this pain that I am feeling.
I could almost see this door infront of me, closing on me as each day draws nearer. It is almost like darkness is setting in, sinking in like ink creeping on a piece of white sheet.
Why do I not feel any sense of relief and joy from the coming days of freedom? On the contrary, I am feeling a deepening sense of solitude, uncertainty and uneasiness...
December is arriving and I am so dreading it.
Yes, it could not better fit that feeling that I am having now, inside.
The silence could not be much more deafening than this. It kept ringing in my head every minute, every second... reminding me. Mourning. I am all by myself, left all alone in the empty space and emptiness.
My eyes swelled every time I spoke of the present and the future. I felt this sense of loss, like a part of me just died.
No other disappointment and anger at this moment could be more overwhelming than this pain that I am feeling.
I could almost see this door infront of me, closing on me as each day draws nearer. It is almost like darkness is setting in, sinking in like ink creeping on a piece of white sheet.
Why do I not feel any sense of relief and joy from the coming days of freedom? On the contrary, I am feeling a deepening sense of solitude, uncertainty and uneasiness...
December is arriving and I am so dreading it.
posted by Jerylene at 00:07
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