can't choose

I felt stuffed up, suffocated by a sense of obligation - an obligation I can't afford to ignore this time.

How long more can I wait? What are the promises I have made myself since I took the turn?

I have to make them happen... now.

Like the other time, I had the same hesitation I have now and things didn't work out previously.

I just pray that it would be different this time - if not the things beyond me, I hope I would be stronger and tougher and able to persevere till a reasonable amount of time.

I can't sit on it any longer. 'Time and tide wait for no man'. I can't afford to choose.

Face it.

I need to make the most out of this, even if I don't want it as much as I should.

Give me strength.